Thus far, today has beed a good day. I'm well rested, dressed nice, and actually motivated to get something done at work. I'm looking forward to tonight, though. If everything goes according to plan I should be sleeping at home in my own bed! I'm also looking forward to not having to drive to my mom's tonight, that is, if everything goes accordingly. Once rent is paid and electricity is back on I can look forward to smooooooooth sailing for the rest of this month.

I emailed my boss today and told her I'd like to meet with each of the ladies in the office so that I fully understand their expectations of me and vice versa. For those who don't know, I'm a receptionist. I have to cater to four very demanding women on a dailly basis. I want to make sure that we all have a mutual understand of the everyones expectations around here. She said it was a wonderful idea and that she would schedule the meeting sometime in the next day or so. I'm looking forward to it. There are some issues I hope to address. I'd better write them down somewhere, otherwise I'll forget.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. Chris is supposed to be leaving in the morning for his best friends bachelor party in New Orleans, but he decided he might not go. I hope he doesn't because I don't want to have to worry about his ass actin' buck wild for 2 or 3 days. Especially in New Orleans. Maybe if I act like I really want him to go he'll get suspicious and end up staying. It's like reverse psychology. I know that's not how it would work. He'd end up going anyways, and doing something he wouldn't have done originally out of spite. That's how Chris operates. All I know is I'd prefer if he didn't go, and that's the end of that.

30 more minutes to go at work, so let me get to work and make it look like I've actually been doing something.

EDIT:// I love how nothing goes according to plan. Chris just called and said that RENT is paid, but ELECTRICITY won't be paid until Monday. Likely. What's rent without electricity? I can't sleep there anyways. Looks like I'm staying at mom's...again. FUCK!&#@

WAIT, SLOW DOWNNN.

WAIT, SLOW DOWNNNN.

Omg, I am so glad that my work day is almost over! I've only been here 3 weeks and I'm already becoming less motivated. When I'm not motivated I tend to not give a fuck, and when I don't give a fuck I tend to make a lot of little mistakes. My boss is having to repeat things she's already told me which doesn't make me look good. She shouldn't have to do that. I gave her a good first impression and I don't want her to start second-guessing her hiring decision. It's not that I don't like my job, I just don't love it. I get bored with doing the same things over and over. I like to conquer new challenges. I like change, period. Having to learn so much shit in such a short amount of time can be overwhelming. Luckily bosslady empathizes. It's the Real Estate industry so it's not all peaches and cream 'round here. Digg what I'm sayin'?

I don't have much else to update about. I just needed to vent. I get off in 8 minutes so I'm going to start cleaning off my desk and preparing to leave. I want to get out of here as fast as possible so I can get to my mom's sooner. I want to relax tonight, and try and get a decent night's rest. I need to sit still before my brain malfunctions. Have a good night.

LOST & FOUND.

LOST & FOUND.

Hola mis amigos! It's been almost a week since we've spoken. I've missed you guys. As you can see I've changed the layout again. I'm keepin' it simple for now. I'm trying to make a statement- a little subtlety can go a long way. Anyways, I decided to title this blog "lost and found," and I think you'll understand why once I explain. Over the past few weeks all I've seemed to blog about was how shitty my life was. I kept going on about all the negative things in my life that I wished I could change without taking a breath long enough to realize all the beautiful things I've been blessed with. I've complained mostly about my relationship and how it wished I could fix it. I thought I had lost it, but don't you always seem to find something you're looking for in the place you'd least expect? I was so consumed with the emotional technicalities and clichés of a relationship that I had forgotten how deeply in love with Chris I've become. I found the passion that I thought was dwindling away. I found the gentle, caring man who I thought had turned cold. I would look at a situation as it occurred and I always felt like I should change something, but really that's not how it's supposed to be. When I look at the bigger picture I wouldn't change my relationship for the world. I wouldn't trade anything I've been through, good or bad, for something ordinary. Absolutely not. My love is nothing short of extraordinary and it continues to blossom with time. I only hope that it continues and that my time isn't cut short. I've learned that nothing is perfect, and I have to work with what I've been given and I'm perfectly content with that.

On a lighter note- I had a decent Labor Day. It was a four day weekend from work so that was lovely. Electricity is still off at my house, so I've been staying at my mom's. It's an hour and a half away from work, and not very convenient but I don't have much of a choice right now. I'm just trying to survive- It's what I do. I'm ready for this week to be over and for everything to go back to normal- but I'm not complaining. I just want to be at home, in bed with my baby and not sleeping on my mom's little ass couch. I want to eat my own food and not have to feel like I'm a burden to my mother who also has 2 other mouths to feed. I've always been independent and felt like I can take care of myself, so I don't want to feel like I have to depend on someone to survive. Things should be back to normal Thursday, and then I'll be ready to deal with the next situation that's thrown my way. Right now the current situation is that I have a major headache so I'm going to call it a night. I have to get up early anyways.

I'd love to hear how your weekend was.