"SURVEY" OF SORTS.

Answer these questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your own invention. Add one more question of your own.

What is your current obsession?Changing my image. I've been the same "Plain Jane" chick all of my life. I have always gone unnoticed, which isn't really a problem for me — I'm not looking for anyone's attention — I have just been having a really hard time lately. I have this creative itch that I am dying to scratch, but I haven't found the right medium yet. I figure if I change, or at least update my image I will feel a little better about myself and that will give me the motivation I need to get on back the right track.

What are you wearing today?Today I am wearing a blue/black patterned sun dress, my favorite black cardigan sweater, black sandals, and silver accessories.

Why is today special?Today is Thursday, which means that it's one day closer to being Friday, which is one day closer to the weekend. I am going to try and have a fun weekend, but without money that's a little hard.

What would you like to learn to do?I would love to learn to draw, and make designs freehand or by pattern. I'd love to start sketching some design ideas so then I can make my ideas come to life. I'm tired of them being stuck in my brain. I'd also love to learn to paint. I hear that Art Therapy can be very relaxing. I'd like to learn the quickest, easiest way to make a shitload of money, and I'd also love to learn to speak French, or even Spanish (from Spain, not Mexico).

What is your favorite weather?It's a toss between Autumn, and Spring. I love the beautiful colors Autumn brings with the falling leaves, but I also love the budding flowers, and perfect temperatures that Spring brings.

What would you like to have in your hands right now?Either a shitload of money, or the new iPhone 3Gs. I'm longing for the both of those. Maybe even some pussy, wink wink. Who's gonna make that happen?

What would you like to get rid of?"His" insecurities. I'd like him to stop being so insecure and jealous. I'd like to feel freedom again without the fear that I'd be losing my best friend. I just want him to be comfortable with the person that I really am, and not the person he wants me to be. I'd also like to get rid of half my wardrobe and replace it with all the things I've been wanting.

What did you dream of last night?Last night I dream't that Chris Brown (of all people) was trying to get with me. We were just about to hook up, when I got woken up by something or someone! Boy was I mad. I tried so hard to dream that dream again. You'd better believe it!

Who do you want to meet in person?There are so many people that I would love to meet, It's be hard to name them all. Many celebrities, leadership figures, and everyday people that I've never had the pleasure of meeting in person.

One thing that you would snatch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets? I'd take EVERYTHING from Rihanna's closet and wouldn't feel guilty about it at all! I wouldn't mind rummaging through Teyana Taylor's closet, Beyonce's got the diva thing on lock, and Amber Rose can rock some tights.

What is your dream job? I’m still trying to figure that out. But when I think of being successful, or happy, I don't see myself as filthy rich or the CEO or some Fortune 500 company. I just want to be content, full of passion, and wrapped up in doing whatever it is that I love doing. Just like I'd be with person I'm in love with.

Personal aspirations at the moment?I aspire to aspire something. At the moment, I feel like a zombie. I feel like I'm walking, alone mostly — with no path in particular — just doing what I HAVE to do to survive, working hard just to pay bills, but not doing the things that truely make me happy. I'm just stuck.

If you had a time machine, which time would you like to revisit?The 70's. I'd be a hippie. =D I'm pretty much a free spirited, "peace and love" type of person and I have always wondered what real hippies lived like.. or if it's all just TV hype.

WORD VOMIT.

I don't know what I'm saying, I'm just saying it.

1250A Today has been an emotionally unstable day. I went from happy, to mad, to sad, to a breakdown of sorts, to mad again, and now I'm neutral. Fuck everyone. I tell motherfuckers my problems for venting purposes and I end up feeling more like an ass after my conversation with them than I had before hand. What kind of shit is that? I expect at least one person to empathize, but no niggas want to jump down my throat as if I'm wrong for feeling the way I feel. You won't do that to me, will you?

Oops. It seems as if I've run out of time. Soon enough I will be able to blog from home. I'll finish venting some other time. Good morning.