I know that Valentine's Day comes on the same day every year, but could it come at a more inconvenient time in my life? I'm the biggest love nerd you could ever imagine, and I've always cherished the idea of Valentine's Day, but I wasn't expecting it to come so quickly. Yikes! Every year for the past 3 years, I've been so invested in trying to correct the mishaps and misfortunes of my life that whenever the holiday rolls around I become obsessive and pushy hoping to make this one better than the last and it always backfires on me. Chris is by far the most un-celebratory person I've ever met (especially the celebration of love) and I know this but I still tried to pressure him into giving me the day I dream about. It still hasn't happened. 3 tries, 3 fails. This time, it doesn't matter. I've said it before, and I will say it again. This year — as cliché as it may sound — is MY year. I started off on the right foot for change in 2010 and I'm not stopping now. There are more important things in my life that I should focus on rather than worry about whether or not I received chocolates and a teddy on February 14th. I'm not going to concern myself with whether or not I'll be spending the holiday alone. What does it matter? I'm alone every other day of the year, why should this one be treated any differently? It shouldn't, and it won't.
I'm not going to plan, anticipate, hope for, or wish to receive any special treatment on the 'big' day. If by some chance someone does something special for me — of course — that would make me really happy, but if nothing happens it's not the end of the world. If I don't have a date, I'll celebrate by myself. I can make it a night in with movies and junk food, to pamper myself, or I can go out and have a few drinks with my girls. Whatever I decide to do, I will be surrounded by positive people and positive energy. For 3 years I've allowed myself to allow someone else to disappoint me on Valentine's day, but I promise that not happening in 2010.
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