ZZZZZZZ.

It is cold, and I am tired.

I didn't go to sleep until 5a and I woke up at 9a. I have fallen asleep at my desk a couple of times. Shhhh, don't tell! I'm trying to stay awake, but all hope for Starbucks is ruined — they're closed. Today's work day has been the slowest ever.

In other news, I pampered myself today. I got a mani-pedi, and my eyebrows waxed. Just something I do to feel a little better about myself and kickstart my day. Too bad this day has been a drag. I also went Laptop shopping. Hopefully I find something suitable soon, I would like to start taking some courses online in the near future. I'd also like to invest in a new TV and some home decor. I'd like my apartment to feel homey. I want my pantry and Fridge stocked with groceries, and I don't want to feel like I have to go anywhere for anything. But enough blabbing about stuff that costs money.

In relationship news, things with Chris and I are good — well neutral. We're separated of course. He's lives there, and I'm living here. It's a complicated situation as it's always been so there is no need to dabble in those waters. Changing the subject — I've always liked, or been curious when it comes to being with women and as of the past few months I have had some experiences with women that have opened my eyes. I've had the opportunity to harness my curiosity and confirm my feelings. Although I don't like labels, one might classify me as being bisexual and I am completely okay with that. I find myself more and more attracted to women sexually. I see a girl in the grocery store who before I would have just glanced at and passed by, but now I find myself "checking" her out. I am actually talking to this girl right now. She's really great and seem truly interested in me, but I just can't feel it all the way with her. We don't seem compatible enough, and she doesn't understand why I say there are "no sparks." I am trying to give it a shot with her, but I don't know how long I can keep pretending that I "miss" her, and that I find her "wildly attractive" when in reality I don't. If she just happened to be any other girl (physically) with CLOSE to the same personality I would probably be thrilled about considering a future with her. Call me shallow, but it is what it is. Enough about her, I think you get the idea.

I came to a realization today while I was at the nail salon. "White girls" intimidate me — sexually that is. With their blue eyes, and pretty long hair. Their long legs, perfect ass, and perky titties. I would LOVE to bang a "white chick" but would a white chick love to bang me? Question of the evening. Good night.

SURPRISE — NO INTRO NEEDED.

Whoaaa! Slow down, take a deep breath, and exhale. I'm back! I know I was on hiatus for a few months, but I'm here — hopefully to stay. Alot has been going on as usual. So much it would take me forever to update, so I thought I would just keep this blog simple with a little "re-introduction."

My name is Breanne. Virtually I am your typical 21 year old. I’m chaotic at times, mostly indecisive about everything, I’m all about being in the moment, and I curse like a sailor. I don’t smoke, I hardly drink, and my piss test comes back clean every time. Majority of the time I’m a girly girl. I like massages, mani-pedis, shopping sprees, and high heels — but I also like to get dirty with the boys. I’m lazy as all get up, I love sleep, and I can’t find anything when my environment is clean. I’m not dirty, just messy. I have this creativity inside of me somewhere waiting to unleash itself, I just haven’t found my medium yet. I march to the beat of my own drum, and I believe that all rules are made to be broken. I’m a rebel in my own way. I hate school, but I love to learn. I’m sly, I’m witty and I catch on quickly to credible humor. I like attention, but I don’t go looking for it — I truely believe I command it. I am 100% confident in who I am no matter how many flaws I may have or how little I fit in. Really only one person’s opinion other than my own matters to me and I think we pretty much share opinions. I’ve had only one true best friend whom I also consider my worst enemy. No matter how dull my life is or has been, I still think it’s pretty awesome and I’m happy I’m living, but also ready to die when God says so. If anybody knows me it should be my mom, and to an extent she does, but only one person has seen all of me — even the sides I didn’t know I had. Sometimes I feel stronger than the strongest person you know, but I’m selfish. I don’t have to flaunt myself to the world. I believe that the only thing stopping me is myself, but it’s just a phase. I am me, and probably the most amazing person I know next to my king.

Hopefully you've enjoy. This is me in a nutshell. Work is almost over, so I will see you lovely people later! Dueces.